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Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
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12:39 am - so confusin... upsets me.. complexity they call it.
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so simple yet so complicated..... wat shld i be still learnin? so tiring n unsweet after the twist. wanna knw who sets rules of wrong n rite anyway..
is it wrong to jus fall for someone jus at first sight or meet or so, to hav feelings for someone? is it not true or fake? its jus how one feel at the initial stage..
can be jus lust tt dun last but can be also if in time to come one still hv the same feelings..
maybe its reali lust for many, as love are neber easily transferable.. and u pause for awhile, not feelin anythin for any potentials tt passes by..
but yet again, u feel the gut to go ahead again n it could be all wrong.. damn its complex..
its like sometimes so simple a feeling.. but seems like many disagree.. and claims tt one shldnt be so sure when its jus simple
love...such a small word but yet so complex.. LOVE as in the word. the feelin, its such a small, short word but yet the whole thing is complex lik hell
gosh.. mus games be played to stay in track of the word n world love?
nope but life is such.. simple but never a bed of roses. perhaps nt so simple for sum but definately never a bed of roses for all..
we all hv to go thru sumthing some wat or sum how
seems like tt experience keep comin. somethin tt is simple n nice, becomes complicated n twisted into somethin so unsweet..
..... a conversation of me n 'end-liao'...
...sigh...
current mood: uncomfortable
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| Sunday, March 29th, 2009
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6:13 pm - a week to rem..
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how interesting a wk I had toda..
Mon: send out FA to printer at sims drive. Tue: arrange flowers again. met ting for dinner at new place. Wed: colour proof checking at printer. Met 2 jies at raffles. Had wonder bda dinner n surprise for her n her. Thurs: pres check at sims drive. meet jo for pool n dinner. Fri: settle course fee for kew. Rush to lasalle. Head to meet sin For dinner. Met don for pool. Sat: cycle at ecp wif the gang n more. Yve house dvd n e rest Mahjong. Choya is good. Wanna go km8 but din manage. Sun: suppose to meet some but cancel due to weather.
Fotos n maybe details soon..
current mood: artistic
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| Monday, March 16th, 2009
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11:23 pm - three entries tt i heart so muc n still counting..
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13 Jan 2009 00:12 engraved memories..
i look forward to a beautiful future now its gone. no reason no why its jus gone. i hav a song in my heart but i dun hav the lyrics. u are impt to me but was actually of little consequence. i thgt i hate u but im glad it happened. watever is the end result im still glad i hav knwn n love u. not havin a choice its already a choice made. i cry but theres no tears i guess its bleedin inside. u hav ur reasons why cant i knw the truth. i rather let the truth hurt me than to hurt n not knw why at all. at least i odd to know but i jus wasnt told. i rather u kill me straight than torture me with no truth. mus i let u live in my heart or jus let u go. mus i move on since i invested great love n devotion. is it moving on if u still lives in my heart. i need tt higher aspects of life but i thgt tts u. wat i thgt was truly fulfillin in life turns out to be ashes. im still lovin u without any reason why. u truly love me am i ur happiness lik u are mine. it jus hurts from inside out and my eyes turns watery now. though i bleed i jus wan u to be happy. __________________________
28 Dec 2008 14:48 treasure..
when is the rite time for anythin.. it takes two to clap.. wats the inner voice within.. when shld the next level be..
sometimes desperation sets in.. sometimes tears set in.. im not lovin u the way i wanted to.. wats worth, does it matter further.. wats rite, wats wrong anyway.. goin with the flow is it all it takes..
where is the flow leadin to.. will both hearts ever melt into one.. sometimes ans are ans.. wats ahead no one can predict.. wats a wish to be fulfilled.. wats a dream to be accomplished..
wats lies, wats truth, why does it matter.. wat tts ahead.. how are responses.. wat are reactions.. confusion surrounds love.. love surrounds connection..
doesnt mean it is, it shld be.. but tts the way is it.. when will there be a period.. when will there be a full stop.. wats goin on.. makin it clear.. wats rules..
how to spell it all out.. life is so unpredictable.. jus wanna treasure while i can.. __________________________
24 Nov 2008 23:38 love
hearts were sent attraction were there for me more hearts were sent email were sent converse with a light heart questions were avoided somehow we drifted away emails were sent heart were sent misses grew deep somehow i feel for u thru time at least a mail a day i sent we connect i knw we hav each other in mind we light up each others heart i took ur breathe away we smile when we think of each other our hearts grew fonder i give u the strength to live love blossom we look at the same moon every nite misses jus grew deeper i wish i could be there u fall ill each time i imagine takin care of u watch the fireworks with u
time passes u wanna move away most difficult period for u devastation sets in ans were not answered reasons were never valid i bleed n plead for us god help me i pray pointless n worthless still believing is all i knw i promise i will find u it hurts u twice as im hurt it jus hurts i promise i will stop all possible tried each time i fail i cry as long as there's faith i knew one fine da give myself tons of reasons i lost it NY is jus where i wanna be thgts came along many wat if appear still there are not boundaries as long as i believe
love has no reasons its u tt i love it shall be u tt concur all odds tell me how u look i dun care tell me wats worth n worthless who sets rules rules are choices made
i wont give up will i ever embrace u no one reali knw not even u still i knw and wanna knw miracle i still pray
even if we never meet i will still love you
current mood: indescribable
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| Wednesday, March 11th, 2009
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1:16 pm - impromptu.
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its funnie n interestin how sometimes timin, life are so amusingly surprisin u with memories to be filled.
ppl pass each others life, ppl meet on the streets. frens randomly jus become better frens. close ones jus randomly grew closer or apart.
i guess life is so full of surprises if u see it on the whole. even in details, stuffs like details makes the world goes round. makes ones life happier or sadden.
impromptu-ness feels so rite sometimes tt u jus go with ur guts. jus do wat u deem fit despite the odds tts may be in the way. not thinkin too much helps u get on with life muc easier at time.
is ones life oreadi pre-planed before u hav a first step in life? wat makes the changes as changes are constant. at times u wish for somethin, u get another which u din intend. at times u dun wish for somethin, it jus happen.
goin with the flow is how nature takes its place. wat lies ahead is so unpredictable. ur life could be over jus one sec next.
treasurin each moment n plan alittle for the future makes the fulfilment there when u achieve it. but also treasurin it without thinkin too deep it helps to make it all merrier.
everyone wish for the best they can hav. define the best. nothin is complete n finish till its time. timin n time plays such an importance in ur fate of line. everythin happen for a reason. wats the reason u got to find out thru life experience.
this is such an impromptu entry tt i felt so muc like writin. chill n cheers!
current mood: indescribable current music: the call.
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| Tuesday, February 17th, 2009
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5:05 pm - lines tt i like.. leaves an impression..
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'dun forget me, i wont remember anythin else.' - imagine me n you. (she had no choice but to leave in wishin her well.)
'he gets jealous of u in me.' - my sassy girl. (upon likin someone new, she moves away, shoutin tt across the mountains sayin tt, cuz her husband jus passed away.)
'whenever i wanna mention someone new, a sudden thgt of u appears.. and i pause..' - chocolate
'i dun feel tt u are cheatin on me, as long as u feel the same as i do, den everythin will be ok.' - cant recall.
and the list goes on..
current mood: calm
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4:32 pm - fun nite at white party!
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din expect the crowd to be tt cool compared to play. maybe cause all dress in white n all kids looks more matured. had lots of fun with frens n celebrating love with all tt u love is of so much fun.
had fun ding dong-ing with fren's crush. had fun running ard diff areas of mimolette. had fun ppl watchin. had fun catchin up with frens n more frens. had fun takin photos. shld hav taken more. had fun with the white theme.
though mimolette was so deep in an uh-lu place, its worth goin n being surrounded with love in the air.
 4 in white.
 5 in white.
 3 in white. this incident was funnie but fun.
 glow in the dark n with flash.
 likewise.
 location: mimolette.
 2 in white.
 me and xt. haha we had fun la.
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..whenever i wanna mention someone interestin or so, i will hav the sudden thgt of u.. den i will pause.. i wonder wher in the world are u..
current mood: calm
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| Monday, February 2nd, 2009
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1:54 am - the month ends..a new month begins..
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updates.. wat shld i blog bout.. for the month, been to hk (heart), took my break frm sg. came back, no matter wat or how long, sure hav to be back to reality huh.
pack non stop, soon enough went visitin for cny. seen old faces, collect notes, eat, drinks, entertain. did some future planning, alot of clearing. celebrate the new yr with fw indirectly. hee.
quickly enough, the month ends. wow..feb is here. wats comin this feb month? anythin interestin? oh am i gettin my new phone this month? im interested in the nokia E71. lookin good.
will i visit nyc soon enough? ting, lets see if we shld choose the month of june for nyc? or earlier? or another country? seems so far yet it will be so near. will there be changes durin tt period? lets see..
im lik so awake now due to my nap in the noon. went to read some blogs of frens. so nice, pinky got new wheels. xt's half is back, ha. and lots more. seems like im a bit lost touch with the net world due to cny.
alrite i shall go try fallin asleep.. i still hope to knw 'the reason why'..
current mood: calm
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| Sunday, January 11th, 2009
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2:02 am - its been a long long while since im here..
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jus wanna update some hk shots which i dunno why i upload at fb. here goes.. same as fb..
 not bad a hotel compare to the past i tried. promotion for 3nites n above. much bigger and spacious. there is even a lounge area. n every mornin there will be newspaper in a bag at ur door.
 nite fake christmas trees with blue lights..
 disneyland train jus for fun. to n fro till it shiok den i go to next destination. ha..
 the food here is nice n ok price. oh the ger at the counter resemblance sammi cheng.. woo.. soup: veggie puree n shrimp. nice! main: drunken peigon, fried egg plant.
 ice blended so tall. mr. soffee car still exist in hk. famous roast goose shiok. durian dessert n mango sago. dim sum is neber a missed. some part of pork. i dun lik after taste la.
 fried soya sauce fish yum! dumpling soup at airport cost S$8!! bird nest cake which i found ok only. dessert with nice durian n g. rice. dim sum as usual. shiok n cheap cheap. shark fins soup at airport S$60!! i din knw, if not i wont order it at the airport! but reali alot of fins inside. hee.
 steamboat at mongkok mus try. damn crowded day n nite. and potion is huge! din expect veggie to be served like free. cant finished. cheap cheap too. total i think bout S$22? gd food too. fresh! and the 8 magic sauces served. faintz. i ordered drunken chicken with herbal soup. ha!
 beri nice, toilet sign is blind frenly. dim sum neber a miss in the mornin. yum! amazingly tables are shared here with divider cloth. nvm, everyone washes their utensils thoroughly before food! erm pinky, did we do tt in the past?
 so cute the roads are printed with signs tt say look right when traffic is on coming on the right. keke.. same goes for the opposite side.
 cool clock reflection on the wall. how to use the traffic sensor? i went to designer/lifestyle stores, their deco pretty cool. the doors are like huge metal pieces.
 muji in hk is huge. but i din buy anythin. ha.. jus browsin around n head elsewhere shoppin!
 interestin streets. stairs tt are neber ending. love the high end streets as well. high raise buildin against the sky. certain stores are grilled like wire mesh. supermarket displays of products so 'market place', i like. feel lik enclosed with stuffs once step in. =)
 new flagship of agnes B in new IFC mall huge! cause it consist of all diff boutiques into one corner. i like seeing everythin in one huge store with diff section. chocolates n cafe too.
 my stuffs brought frm hk. hee i like to take such shots after each trip. keke for fun n also to look at the damage done. ha..
 home sweet home. din wanna leave hk. still so much fun. i'll be back.
reali glad i had this break of mine after so long.. though my mind is off on thinkin of some issues. if oni im still there touring..maybe i wont face wat im facin nw. hiaz, im so happy when im back, upon receivin gd news too, den i knew it, somethin bad will happen too. it did n it hurt me. sucks. we'll see in time wats next. my horo said soon, everythin will be clear.. hopefully..
current mood: calm
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| Friday, October 31st, 2008
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7:11 pm - hiaz..
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i think this is gonna turn into a sad blog man.. jus like the site 'sad robort'. oh well but its a place tt i can jus let my feelings flow.. be it flow away n be merry later or jus to pen it all away.
an entry i hope to leave::
every desire has its price. am i wrong if i persist? i persist cause i love.. is it wrong to jus wanna knw the truth? maybe i shld respect tt the truth doesnt wanna be knwn.. i dunno wat is right or wrong or shld or shld not be done each time..
sometimes i jus hope i no longer am puttin myself in too much thgts unknowingly.. or is it knowingly? shitty yet again..
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alrite now the happy stuffs.. went Play ytd for early holloween. cool its fun with the mask tt the twins made. without the masks i think the fun will be lessen.
i rem laughing out loud till it brings all sadness away. its darn fun and i catch up with frens new n old.

 someone got omitted out of the photo la. ha cuz its too dark. and surprisingly it refused to be uploaded as well. hmm.. ____________________________________________
movin on, xt n i had 3 fun days catchin up as both r free frm wk. the drivin in to privé looks cool in the day. love it. its like drivin in another country without a need to stop. nice.


 this is when we are leavin.
 a shot extract frm video. i like!
we are like there for breakfast in the late noon. and we din had our milkshake. how can?



and we hav some free time to kill.. we shop in vivo.. had more time to kill.. saw some cutie puppies and last drink stop at marche..
 ok we only had this at marche. ha but its shiok drink.
and we saw a babe.. haha if oni theres guts it will be more fun! well maybe next time, fate.. ha.. ____________________________________________
we went sun moon as well.. the day before prive n marche.. had our tea time there.. nice cake n love mojito..

im feelin hungry now for dinner.. so will or will not update with more details.. hee will send pics out soon too.. will will..
cheers to all n myself..
current mood: hungry
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| Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
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12:15 am - i kept it all close to my heart..
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i wrote about us in my private journal.. i had it all kept close in my heart.. i never regret how it started.. though u said u will move away..
i knw we had our share of sweet memories.. so sweet so real u took my breathe away.. i knw i shld be strong to live on happily.. but i dunno how strong can i be each time..
i knw i will fall again.. i hope u will help me up in ur own ways.. i knw i will cry over n again.. the tears for u deep within my heart..
i pray to be there for u.. i pray God will guide me thru.. i went crazy tryin to find u.. i pray u are safe n fine.. it hurts me so much like nothin before.. i knw it hurts u too..
i dun wan u to be hurt.. as i rather u be happy watever happens.. promise me u will be strong no matter wat.. and i will promise u i try to be strong..
u knw i love u so deep words cant express.. i dunno if im too weak to survive this trauma but i promise i will try..
i tear again but prommise i will try.. i truly miss u.. i truly love u....
current mood: crushed current music: heart by stars
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| Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
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11:55 pm - letting go...
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jus typin 'lettin go' is so easy. jus saying it its even easier.
i believe its all true no matter wat as tts how i feel no matter wat.
i dunno where wat how it will be taken care of be it if i dun wan it all to end.
the heart slowly mends itself but fall apart so easily as its fragile without blood.
not knwin might be a blessing but knwin could be an even better blessing as its the 'not knowin' tt kills one inside out.
life is fragile. we can treasure, we can enjoy, we can embrace, we can hate, we can love life but we can never predict life.
fate touches, faith lives, beliefs exist.
so wat if lettin go is the issue now? its jus easily said but never easily done. never will u knw if its worth lettin go.
current mood: exhausted
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| Monday, October 6th, 2008
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11:33 pm - gosh roller coaster..
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im such a prob kid. i hav so much prob everyda in n out. i hate drama, trauma, issues tt cause my life to turn up n down. like im on a roller coaster once again. am i the trouble maker over n again? yes it mus be me. ok i did many wrongs tt cause the consequences of my own. shite.
i hav been bloggin with a lock attached. i wan more close frens to read n let me analyse further. but its jus another top secret tt i cant review n dun wish to.
i knw wat shite i will get into but it jus happen over n again. tts my life somehow eh?
one min i can be happy go lucky tt ppl always thgt i hav no probs, no worries, no shite. but next min i can be so super down tt it feels like im dyin. it mus be cuz u all say too much tt im happy go lucky tts why i continuously hav shite comin back at me. its karma!
hiaz watever. sometimes if oni sometimes it can all be jus watever!
current mood: blank
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| Tuesday, July 8th, 2008
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10:58 pm - bored..
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am i gonna get used to this or wat? i wonder if one lives the life of a tai tai, will there be boredom? oh i knw, she will be occupied with mahjong, spa, food, entertainment, meet ups.. hee
im busy durin the month of june till early july. when its closer to early july, im happy cause i hav time to sleep, regain my rest n do wat i like to do besides wkin. but another thgt came along, wat if i regain my rest, i will be bored without wk. yeah it hit me soon enough, after enough sleep for jus a few days. shit.
it sort of reminds me of the period durin May, where im pretty free, i had a long break without wk. it turn into boredom n irritation cause of other thgts. i hav time to think alot which at times sucks. cause my thgts wander off to unnecessary stuffs. im alittle afraid tt would happen again as someone sort of came back into my life again.
i rem when im busy, it din bother me much, i did think alittle den im back on track busy wkin durin june. i had to sleep on time n din hav the time to think much either. BUT now im gonna be free for at least a wk again. my mind starts wonderin n thinkin again.
i shld remind myself tt it shld jus all be normal be it if im free or not. busy or not. all unnecessary thgts shldnt keep me occupied like tt. i will be fine and once again, i guess i feel better after puttin it all here..
though im still bored n im lookin forward to another's mail..
current mood: bored
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| Sunday, June 29th, 2008
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2:02 am - post production images of my bda. hee
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i said i will try to upload once i got the chance. hope its pretty nice for viewin.. ting u see... haha
here goes.. thanks for all the nice nice memories my dears.. im glad u guys are around to make me happy durin my big da.. i jus rec an email from a crush tt is in NYC too. who knws..
anyhow, here are the images of nice memories i had..




more to look forward for but shall leave all else to fate. but i can still wish wish here n thre rite.. hee or dream..
current mood: cheerful
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| Sunday, June 22nd, 2008
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9:51 pm - my big da when it hits midnight.
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tomo its the day i was born. hmm wat wil my wish be? gosh i almost forgot about being able to hav a wish to make. seems like many things happen off on. nice n not so nice ones.
there are wishes n surprises i received, reachin the big day. new environment of wk im in brings ups n downs too. but i will look on the bright side of life durin this comin da.
let me see.. its nice to knw ppl rem.. u asked for my add. n i cant help but to think its for e big da? i receive surprise msg from an ex-crush. sweet. bon voyage. i receive a sweet surprise cookie on my desk in office. smile. i was told to be brought out for lunch tomo. mum treat me yummy chinese cuisine ytd. i jus open pinky's present. i like it. i was told it signifies peace, gentleness and purity. in armory, the dove signifies loving constancy and peace. in all, its freedom pinky says. nice concept. heart. tomo im gonna hav dinner with ting. lookin forward. receivin surprise msgs makes a little smile in my heart.
lots of photos will be uploaded after the big da. i hope. =P
actually i hav complains and lots of 'supposing' plans for the big day tt this blog could help me wash away negativities after i pen them down but i decided to jus let it go. let it be. and everyda is and can be the BIG day when i wan it to be.
'ask urself if u deserve it' - an ans to all n everythin..
current mood: calm
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| Sunday, June 8th, 2008
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3:38 pm - cool stuffs man!
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pinky pass me this blog called trendology. so much bout cool design related stuffs. and i click this word 'ici' in french i suppose. den it lead me to 'kraak & smaak'. wow i think they are cool too!
saw the youtube of theirs. i think there are much more but i wanna jus post some of them here for readers of my blog first. =P
surf more back entries, it leads to set of images we shared b4. SO COOL. its all linked somehow. THANKS PINKY FOR 'trendology'. tts why i like to exchange cool sites. share n ENJOY together. =)
ok how bout http://www.dinnerinabottle.com and this cool adv:
(STILL SURFING MORE!!) wow
current mood: happy current music: squeeze me
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| Sunday, May 25th, 2008
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6:33 pm - restartin..
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well well.. i think finally restarted the system within. i did keep rebottin it but it failed. darn. n wtf.
but thank god its restartin. i guess its all a learnin ground. it was said u first need to face the errors, den learn the toughs den use it to ur own good advantage. hav faith.
i went to erase all the virus tt is always on comin whenever im clearin it out. i change watever style to the system i like. make it clear with an anti-virus. ha! darn wat am i rubbishing bout? anyway its my blog to do so.
i hope wish this time its wkin well again. 'its the inner strength, hav faith.'
current mood: calm
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| Wednesday, May 14th, 2008
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11:13 pm - maybe i shld shut down n reboot..
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wats goin on with me im jus not sure. or wats gonna into me? im so freakin confusin at times. one min seriously, one min i can feel im over the moon mood. the next, sucky. why? i wasnt like tt before my accident. i knw i think alot in the past too. but now is it worst? is my mood swing gettin worst? i blame the accident again didnt i? but tts wat i rem.
or maybe life has taken a change in me? rugi said tt major part comes from min. cause of tt, its causin the depression inside. which i dun deny. does the 'it' thing makes the world goes round? i believe it does, at least in my world. everythin will be fine if its fine isnt it? the question is do i need tt? i feel the freedom before, i enjoy the moment of selfness before. why did it affect me? everyone needs it in a way or another.
anyway, besides tt bein the major thingy (so be it). i realise my mind is reali confused easily. simple issues, simple decisions i cant fix my mind to it. again, I THINK ALOT before i decide. i hate it being tt way sometimes.
wat can i do to change it? have another mind set i suppose. its not easy but its all in the mind soul body... shut down n reboot..
current mood: confused
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| Monday, May 12th, 2008
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12:24 am - images of previous post..
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cosy Prive::

this is super funnie la!!

the perfect mojito at Prive and our grilled squid::

strawberry mojito::

cheers to the beginnin of the nite::

aint the water pretty?

and to Bens & Jerry at Dempsey. this ger is so cute. she observe wat am i doin, den once i point my camera at her, she smiles for my take::

the creation we had::

this settin of Bens reminds me of finland::

look like a market place of play room::

map of House at dempsey::

jus one corner of House::

mojito from House::

another corner of House::

toilet of House is also a place for pics::

and i jus like such shots::

i cant wait for Wall•e to launch::

thanks for the goodie bag!

and till the next adventure, cheers!
current mood: cheerful
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| Sunday, May 11th, 2008
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11:34 pm - its a good mojito nite out..
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ting and i had a 1 nite before decision, we head out on fri. we went to The Prive at marina bay to try the mojito ting is waiting to let me taste. first most, the environment is awesome. worth a new check out place to chill or dine. cool. photo sessions where of course nt to be missed. the mojito is erm ok. hee i guess its the mix on tt da.. but the strawberry one is nice with my minty. we had finger food of grilled sotong and pork ribs. nice entree i would say. we saw a group of models.. so cool, too bad we gonna leave for location 2.
we decided to head on to our next location. dempsey hill. we couldnt help but enter bens&jerry and hav our ice cream before headin to House. it was ultimate fun n relaxation. bens looks like an ice cream market place for fun time. the settin is awesome. love it and of course thgts of 'the ifs' came along.
anyhow, we had our share and booked a last min movie at 1.35am thru ting's iphone! ha u see wifi hp helps alot. we had one hr so we head on the House for our mojito 2nd hunt. it was nice but the mint leaves aint as clear i guess. ha.. we are seatin in the outdoors facin the 'nature' hehe..
its movie time for made of honour. i duno its out of fun or so tt i bought popcorns n ting had her hotdog. all these were so last min n ONz tt i love the experiences. its reali fun to jus go with the flow n make some risk at times in life.
we cant believe it tt the 8hrs of a nite, we oni spend within a total of S$50. food, cab fares, drinks, movie, wow im surprise n impressed.
PART 2 to come ting! ahaha and ur bda is comin.. wat do u wanna own huh? search in progress..
current mood: naughty
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